Almost Done With Phase I

Honestly could not find anything to really blog about the last two weeks nor did I really have time. Got caught up in things. I got my 6th and 7th letters today. Originally there were no letters in the mailbox today when I got the mail. But as I was in the driveway with the boring mail I did not want in my hand, the mailman drove up the driveway with MORE MAIL! Can you believe it?! I just wanted to plant a big ole' kiss on his cheek! The only reason I wouldn't have done that of course would be because I didn't get letters.. but I did get letters and I still didn't do it because it would have been just weird... to him.

 

Anyway, I suppose I can update you on everything that has been going on the last couple weeks with Mac. He said in his letters that he is trying to go for squad leader and that his Platoon is getting better with time and practice of course. They are pretty good at drill and what not. He got his wisdom teeth out & it went extremely well. He had no swelling and all four teeth were out within 10 minutes. He got to rest, so that is when he wrote a lot of my letters that I got last week. He got his wisdom teeth out a couple days after Easter it sounded like. He goes to Chapel every Sunday. He got to go on Good Friday as well. Not much else to share. He said he dominates the obstacle courses and said that Swim week is next week. (This week now) I believe they go to Camp Pendleton on Friday. Crazy, my Brother and Boyfriend are going to be on the same base and not even get to see eachother.

 

I miss both of them SO much! Can't wait until my Brother is home for good & I fall asleep everynight thinking about just being able to see Mac during Family Day on Thursday! He is going to look so different but, I know one thing that won't change for sure.. His sense of humor. He definitely has not lost his sense of humor while at bootcamp. He always has a funny story to tell me that happened or for instance.. In todays letter it read "I love you more than pigeons love to poop". No matter what it is, it never fails at making me laugh hysterically or giggle like a little girl. He is something else. I love it.

 

I honestly cannot express how much I miss him. I miss him peeking one eye around the corner of every doorway, thinking he is being sneaky. I miss him hiding behind anything that could hide his 6 foot tall self. I miss him giggling like a little boy if I put my hand right under his armpit and not even tickling him. Seriously this list can go on and on and on.. you all get where I am going with this. The only thing keeping me sane is our not so little anymore pup Lucy, keeping busy with working out and working, writing & recieving letters and loving him unconditionally & with every last bit of my heart. He is my motivation to get through every day and not to give up on myself or what I believe in. I love that boy so much. SO MUCH!

 

 

59 MORE FREAKING DAYS!!

long time no post..

Ah, what can I say.. haven't really known what to blog about the past week. My emotions got a little on the wild side there for awhile. Hard to handle when you used to have him there with you whatever you were doing for months while we were both done with school. I write to him every night before I go to bed. People always ask me what on earth I write about that I am able to pump out two pages every single night he is gone. I always just tell him what I did during the day and ask him questions about what he is doing or how he is doing. I can't wait to recieve his letters. Just to see his handwriting again is going to be so comforting. I always wonder what he is doing right at that second or if he is thinking about me.

 

I wrote to him telling how lucky I am having such an amazing guy like him in my life. I can not even begin to express how excited I am for my first year of college to be done and just move to be with him! It is all I can think about besides getting a stinkin letter! That boy is my world and I wouldn't want it any other way.

 

72 MORE DAYS UNTIL I GET TO SEE MY LOVE

Daily Motivation

So I am just going to put it out there that everyone needs to stop making excuses! Today at the gym I was on the treadmill like usual cranking up the incline to get that beach butt that every girl dreams of. I turned the incline down and started running, at first I just had told myself that my goal was a half mile running straight. Well, I had got to the half mile and was no where near breathing as heavy as I thought. What do I do? I keep running until I can't breathe anymore.I ran 3/4 of a mile without stopping. I cooled down a little bit and then ran the rest of the mile. I have an amazing person that is my motivation to get through this with a whole new look. My secret when I am running is that when I am looking out the window towards the river.. I am not actually looking at the river. I am zoned out with a picture in my head that I am running along side him and his Platoon. I don't think there is anything more motivating. My ultimate goal is that when I see him in California in 12 more weeks, his jaw will drop & when he comes home on leave I will be able to keep up with him. He always was trying to get me to go running with him before but I refused. Even when he told me he would wear the weight vest to make it harder for himself. Then I could probably only run 10 minutes without choking on the negative degree temperatures that lovely Wisconsin brings us. I know he has always seen me as perfect and that I don't need to change, but I need this change for myself. It is going to make me so much more confident and proud of just wearing a t-shirt or tanktop in the summer instead of hiding under sweatshirts all the time.

 

I was so proud of myself today. I wish so bad that I could have picked up my phone and called him today and told him all about it. I must resist telling him all of this gym stuff. It MUST remain a surprise. So no one go off and tell him in any letters ;)

 

79 days until he gets to see my new rocking body!

 

 



Time is a ticking.

Well.. At least I can say the first week went by relatively fast. It didn't feel like it was going to be going very fast at the beginning of the week but, today is Sunday. I had such a great day yesterday. I got to visit with most of my second family. I got to video chat over facebook with his lovely sister Tiffiny before I got some take-out from Shanghai Bistro for his momma and I.

 

Keeping in touch with his closest family is definitely going to be therapy for me. Makes me feel closer to him even though he is always being held close to my heart every second of everyday. Today Mac and all of the recruits get liberty time and get the options of going to the chapel. So awesome to think that not many of the recruits went to church before but now that they are in bootcamp many of their minds change. Having faith changes soo much. Your attitude, your happiness, your outlook on things. Just everything changes. I hope they use their liberty time to utilize this throughout their journey and utilize the remaining time to write to thier family and closest friend. I can't wait to become the mail mans worst nightmare. I shall have mail everyday for him and I will wait patiently by the mailbox for my letters from the one and only!

 

I seriously cannot express my happiness. It sounds odd for me not to be sad and crying like a baby right now but I am not going to dwell on the negativity. (Which is him being away for a large amount of time) Instead I am going to be over joyed that he finishes each week confidently and without injuries of course. He knows that he has sooo many people behind him to support him. At the end of this journey of bootcamp, I am going to be able to call him My Marine.

 

81 days until I get to see my lover boy!

No love will EVER compare to ours..

 

 

I love this picture.. It captures "us" I guess you could say. We have a really goofy realtionship. (even Matthew is like "what the heck?") We hardly ever fight and if we do it lasts maybe 5 minutes and then it is all back to normal again. He is the spontaneous one. When I say that I mean he is always popping out of hiding spots that I know of and it still scares the daylights out of me. We also have what you can say a really random & weird relationship.. between sticking our fingers in eachothers ears just to bug eachother or when we are in the car going somewhere we both start singing the same verse of a song at the same exact time. 

 

I can not describe our relationship. No one will ever understand the love we share for eachother. He is the most amazing person that I could have ever been blessed with & to think it all started because he hit me in the head with a pen in our 7th grade German class.  


83 MORE DAYS UNTIL I AM IN HIS ARMS!!

Emotions & Little Moments

Ah, it's Thursday and one day closer to Black Friday. For those of you that don't know what Black Friday is.. It's when all the new recruits meet their Drill Instructors. This is when their breakdown begins. Kind of nerve racking even being thousands of miles away. Ironic that yesterday I blogged about wisdom teeth because this morning I found out that in their third week of training they get their wisdom teeth removed. Also getting a couple days of recovery. Which is very good, it makes up for the lack of sleep they will be getting the first couple weeks. I could look at this thursday and make it sound really good..  maybe like 1 week down and a few more to goo! ;)

 

So these last couple days I can tell I am just exhausted. I work 8 days in a row all night shifts but I also keep myself busy during the day and go to the gym, write my letters, and also obviously blog. With Mac on my mind a lot of the day even though I am doing something to keep me busy it makes me emotionally exhausted. I can't wait to get that first letter. It will calm my emotions a little bit and it will just bring me peace. I have been writing like crazy, so anyone that can keep up. I give them props.

 

You can officially call me his #1 fan!

(besides of course his sisters and momma)

Earlier today I was sitting on my bed and my neice comes downstairs to my room get up on my bed with me. She saw a picture of Mac on the computer and goes "Muc".

This is how our conversation went:
Me: "Do you miss Mac?"
A: "yeah, what he doing?"
Me: "He is at Bootcamp. Do you miss him?"
A: "Yeah, I miss Muc. I go to bootcamp" (All with a pouty lip)
Me: "I miss Mac too." (Holding back tears)
 

 Seriously made my morning. We both want Mac back!

 

84 DAYS!



Goofiness

On the way to the gym today I was thinking about how I can feel my wisdom teeth coming in and I will have to get them out soon. BOO, That sucks. Anyways.. I was kind of thankful Mac was not going to be around when I get them out even though I would miss having him sit around watching Jersey Shore with me. The whole point I am trying to get at here is that I will be looking like a chipmunk that is getting ready for winter and everytime I make a weird face, he starts laughing at me. He always responds with "I'm not laughing at you, I think it's cute!". It is just something I can see him saying if he were to see me after I get my wisdom teeth out.

 

 

 

This basically sums up our weird relationship. Speaking of weird I love this little quote by Dr. Suess, I have always loved this and reminds me so much of us.

 

“I am weird, you are weird. Everyone in this world is weird. One day two people come together in mutual weirdness and fall in love.”
― Dr. Seuss 

 

85 DAYS!!